Archive for the ‘Rants’ Category

Babysitting

Monday, December 19th, 2005

Sure, mom… lets make $20 a day babysitting the neighbor’s kid. >_< I have a pounding headache and a 4 year old who screams one in every three words she says, whines every 1 out of 2, and shrieks for anything and everything.

Right now she’s pitching a fit because I didn’t want her in my room messing with my schoolbooks. Poor Luna is threatening to bite her and Echo hasn’t come out of hiding since she showed up. But that dog has been a real trooper, playing with her almost nonstop since she came over. Kaze has even taken a turn. Those animals are something else, let me tell you.

But making $100 this week alone is awesome. I guess all that’s left is to say that I’m gonna feel this in the morning. *le sigh*

EDIT: Now she wants a 20+ year old, ratty, stinky wrist warmer I got back when I was a kid that she found in the pile of cat toys. Is $20 really worth this?? Oh, lets not forget she wanted me to give her my safety sissors, Jasson’s psychology book (?!?), and my colored pencils.

I was hacked

Monday, December 12th, 2005

Well, after much hunting, I finally discovered what had happened.

Apparently, someone had hacked into Jasson’s Gutter Club and had created a hidden directory. Inside that hidden directory was the spam form.

So, I’m sorry Jass — but it had to go. The gutter directory has been completely nuked.

Frankly, I’m about ready to hand off my Flea fanlisting to someone too. I can’t afford to have some idiot hacking into my site, just for the purpose of sending spam. Since they use the same system (PHPfanbase 2.0), Flea is at risk too. Though probably not as much risk as the idea of an Adult Humor fanlisting.

What’s more, I visit the site to see if maybe there’s a patch and I discover a rather cryptic post set right around the time I had all those hacking problems declaring that there’s security issues, but they won’t go into any details.

Well, screw it. Netbunch never did get back to me, they deleted my support ticket and have basically ignored every request for help I made. I need a new host…

Damnit, leave me alone!

Friday, December 9th, 2005

My host is on the fast track to being fired / reported to the BBB.

In November, I had a bunch of hackers trying to break into my copy of eFiction. I managed to get the archive updated, patched, and remodified so it works fairly decently.

Now, I have some spammer using my domain’s catch all e-mail address for his spam campaign. He’s put it as the return address for his current campaign, so all returned e-mails are going to MY account.

I found out because my e-mail was slow and I needed to send a quick note to Bender. Thinking something was up, I opened up my browser and noticed my site was acting buggy. I went to my Webmail and BOOM. 7000 returned e-mails.

Thinking it was the hackers exploiting my site again, I deleted all contact forms. Nope, didn’t touch it. Put them back up. I managed to slow it down my installing some e-mail blockers and filters on my Webmail, but I still easily end up deleting 1000 e-mails a day.

So behold – well over 10,000 returned e-mails in 48 hours. ( I lost count after 10,000) My bandwidth is being eaten alive (I’m up to a whole gig) and it’s only the 9th of December. I’ve removed all downloads and extras to help protect my bandwidth, as well as further compressing my images to make them smaller.

On the 7th, I wrote a very panicked e-mail post to the Netbunch support forums begging for help in stemming this flood. Nothing. I send in a support ticket the next morning – nothing.

I repost a less panicked version of my post and bump my old one as well as submitting a new ticket with more information. I finally get a response: I get yelled at for spamming. My first support ticket is deleted, my first post is locked, my second post is deleted. It’s been 2 days since I heard from anyone and the e-mails keep coming.

I’m going to wait until tomorrow morning before I post a followup to my support ticket and inform them that I still need help. Then, if nothing else happens I’m submitting a complaint to the BBB regarding this shit. As soon as tax returns come back, Mom and Jass are talking very seriously about moving the site to a new host.

Sure, it’s a cliche, but I have to wonder when I became flypaper for freaks.

Sonafabitch!!!

Friday, May 6th, 2005

Had a friend come up this evening… the same one I wrote about months ago, whose also taking computer repair classes. Since some of the people reading this might know him, I’ll call him Neil for the sake of his privacy.

I used to be best friends with Neil – or at least I thought I was. Now he’s coming across more a more like a jerk. At first I thought it was me. Back in High School, I was a brainy, know-it-all geek. Maybe I’m just mad because he’s almost done with college or that it was my pride being wounded. Maybe it’s still just me, maybe I’m just imagining things… but he seems to have this whole “you suck” vibe going on since he knows more than me. (Gee, wiz – idiot…. you graduate in a month.) I dunno, maybe he feels like he has to get revenge on me for being a know-it-all.

Anyway – while he he pointed me to this Spyware cleaner, complaining that my computer was “too slow.” So I ran it. Just as he told me to. Took care of some Trojans and Adware that were on, no biggie. I thanked Neil (sincerely) and got on with life. Later, I tried to log onto my ancient version of CuteFTP. And guess what? It got nuked. Absolutely nuked. All for the want of one blasted advert library. And what’s more, the way he told me to use the program left me with no way to recover the lost file.

I don’t think I’ve ever done this before in my life, but I screeched “Sonafabitch” at the top of my lungs. Then I began bawling.

Mom was annoyed, thought I was being stupid. Jass’ reaction was just for me to download a new one. *sighs*

But it was such a NICE program. It was simple, easy to use, the interface was very intuitive, and I could adjust the fonts as I saw fit. The only drawback was a small ad at the top, which had poofed ages ago.

So, I’ve just spent the last few hours trying to find a new one that’s free, has a simple, intuitive interface, and DOESN’T display everything in size 7 font. (Pixel-induced migraines suck.) You can probably guess how that went.

The only one that has an interface like I like is $35 unless I can somehow come up with the money (not likely) OR can find a pirated version of it somewhere. Yes, it’s CuteFTP 7.0.

I just found a beta version of CuteFTP, which also simply uses adverts… but I’m so leery. It’s coming from a Geocities site, of all places. But damnit, I’ve almost filled up my hard drive with freeware FTP programs that I absolutely loathe.

Here’s hoping.

And it works. ^__^; Warning of adverts, yeah yeah… already know. And I’m good to go.

To be honest, I’ve had a crush on him [Neil] since I was 14 or so. Seriously. I even confided in my cousin Brandon back when I was 16 that I was. He had this peer counselor thing going on through the school, so I went out on a limb and told him. Brandon told me to go for it, but I was too shy to do so. I went away to Mt. Pleasant for college and then moved to Ionia, but I still kept thinking about him.

Now… I really don’t know. I try to talk to him about things we commonly like… computers for one thing, school since we’re both in it and it’s like trying to make water flow uphill. I get a lot of generalizations about school and then what feels like an almost superior attitude about computers.

Is it wrong to feel so… so resentful of him? I’ve known him – been close friends with him – since Kindergarten. I’ve had a crush on him for eleven years. I’ve missed him so gawd-awful-much for at least seven. Now I suddenly almost can’t stand to be around him.

*sighs* I don’t know anymore. I really don’t.

Diabetes Rant

Thursday, October 21st, 2004

To begin, let me just say that needles and injections suck.

Further, last night sucked monkey balls.

And Diabetes sucks even worse.

Diabetes runs in my family on both sides, so it wasn’t a huge surprise a year ago today when I finally got a diagnosis that explained why I was suffering from severe fatigue, thirst, and infections that would not clear up. I had been suspecting anemia (which also is pretty common in my family) or diabetes, just from the specific battery of tests they ran me through.

I wasn’t expecting it to be Type II Diabetes, which is the kind most often to effect the Elderly and Obese. My risk factors were far more in favor of Type I. Of course, they can’t treat me like someone who got the ugly end of the genetic lottery.

Nope, instead I keep finding myself being treated like some lazy bitch who does nothing but sit around and eat bon-bons and fast food all day. The first doctors decided to consign me to deteriorating health, even saying that they’d need to get me on medication to quote unquote “prolong [my] liver function.” They offered no suggestions on lowering my bloodsugar or lessons on even how to test my blood.

So, eventually getting tired of their crap, I dubiously switch to another doctor at an office I had been warned provided low quality care.

Heh, Dr. Reaume is the best damn doctor I’ve ever had, save for the pediatrician I had when I was a kid. He worked with me to find affordable means to get the care and education I needed, even switching me to insulin, which is finally proving to be an effective treatment. Yes, he’s been great for me – Or I should say, Dr. Reaume was great for me.

About a week ago, I received a lovely letter from the State of Michigan that basically stated that to continue receiving Medicaid benefits for medical services, I have to find another doctor. So, the hunt is on, but does the State offer any kind of help. Fat chance.

So now, I’m hanging.

What’s more, is that I really can’t get a job either. One of my meds is $279 per bottle of 150 pills. Medicaid covers it, but only if I’m unemployed. I get a job, I loose Medicaid and find myself faced without a way to afford my medication. The only alternative is finding myself an advocate somehow and seeing if I can get on the drug manufacturers’ assistance programs. (Which I was originally on, until the first doctors’ office insisted I drop it in lieu of Medicaid! )

Well, yesterday (day before yesterday by the time I hit “Enter”) Murphy’s Law struck and I had another fun little episode in this learning curve.

I ate dinner at 5:30pm, with more of the glucose raising things than I normally should have like Scalloped Potatoes, bread and butter, etc. But… I’d been a bit low all day, so I figured a bit of indulgence wouldn’t hurt me any.

At 7:30, I came back from a walk with my dog, and ended up with a slight tremble that indicated I again was low. Being of sound mind and body, I grab a few pieces of Halloween Candy and then spot a nice, big, juicy apple. Normally, that’d be way too much for a snack.

At 9:30pm I tested my bloodsugar, which was at 63 mg/dL. A bit low for me, but no biggie. I had some of my diabetic-friendly yogurt.

I tested again at 11pm before I went to bed, which said I was at 180 mg/dL. A bit higher than it should be, but it isn’t the highest I’ve been.

At 2am I’m still awake, anxiously brooding over really stupid things. I was feeling strung out, bitchy, and not the slightest bit tired. I don’t know at what point it struck me to test again, but I eventually hauled myself out of bed and went to get my test kit.

I knew the moment I touched it I was “crashing” – my vision suddenly blurred, I broke out in a sweat, and I began trembling so violently I could barely handle my lancet device. This test came back at below 50 mg/dL.

Thank goodness for that Halloween candy is all I can say. After eating some candy, I woke mom up and told her. A phone call to the closest ER revealed that bloodsugar under 50 is where they consider it an emergency.

Since Mom was making a 2:30am breakfast for me (not to mention I’ve gotten to loathe ERs with a passion) I told them I’d see how I felt after that and then come in if it still wouldn’t stay up. So after some breakfast, Adult Swim, and another test at 4am later puts me clear up in the 200s. Back to bed… only until 8am.

Mom demanded I call Dr. Reaume’s office and ask to talk to someone about this. I’ve come to the conclusion… there is no Dr.’s office on earth that can hit 100%. Nope, there’s always gotta be something they suck at. Dr. Reaume’s office is returning phonecalls. Two phonecalls wanting advice over an event that could have landed me in the ER and they never called me back. :-/

*sigh* So, the hunt is on to find someone before I have another of these bizarre crashes as well as see if – somehow – I can locate myself an advocate.

Tell me when the fun starts.

Merry-Go-Round Life

Friday, June 4th, 2004

Anyone who has spent any amount of time trying to navigate through the maze of automated phone systems will be able to sympathize with me on this entry.

It started simple enough. I received an invoice for $12 to have my Host renew my domain for me. Simple enough. I also decide to “upgrade” my webspace down to 150MB, since we’re using so little of the resources I paid for. Why pay for things I’m not using, right? So, I send a Money Order for $52 to my Host for both by the 8th on overnight. Simple, right?

Day after day pass and still no word. Thanks to the USPS, I know they received it – because someone had to sign to receive my Money Orders. Getting nervous, I decided to move everything early, just in case. It goes better and faster than I expected, so now I’m waiting on them. Finally, it’s May 19 and still nothing has been done. My domain has expired and I had 48 hours to get it back. Furious, I launch a campaign – demanding answers, ending with a threat to get the BBB if they didn’t do anything. I finally get an answer and my domain is renewed.

I thought I was home free.

Well, that thought turned around and bit me in the ass.

I waited for the Registrar Lock to come off and discovered I couldn’t access any of my domain information. I couldn’t change the Nameservers to point to my new, smaller account nor could I update my contact information. Weird, but I decide to wait longer. Now, May is almost over and I still can’t access my account. I once again launch a slightly more polite campaign and a few more days later – they’ve fixed the error and I’m able to point the domain here.

*sigh* So now, everything’s running again, where it’s supposed to be.

And then, there’s Medicaid.
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Poverty Hiatus

Saturday, April 24th, 2004

Thank you, Kate, Crim, Izzy, and anyone I might be missing for your comments and hugs for the past few entries. I’m sorry for not e-mailing you, Kate – it’s been really hectic here. *hugs* Again, thank you for the offer.

Sometime during this week, multiple utilities are likely going to be shut off on us. The phone company gave us 24 hours from today to pay our phonebill, which is hilarious, since they’re closed today and tomorrow. The power company intends to shut off our gas and electricity on the 28th. Monday, Mom is going in to try and get assistance to pay at least the Power Company. They are demanding $140 to keep them from shutting us off and about $480 to turn us back on after the fact. That is nearly four weeks worth of paychecks at the amount we’re raking in at this moment. So, unless the Family Independence Agency can help us, we’re probably going to be on a long hiatus. I have no idea how I’ll keep Echo warm and clean without power or heat… *sighs* She’s still tiny enough that anything under 68�F is a touch too chilly for her, especially at night. Right now she sleeps in a cat carrier with a heating pad in it. I can’t bring her to bed… she’s still small enough that I’m terrified to sleep with her in my bed for fear of rolling on to her and crushing her. She’s also still smearing her food all over herself when she eats, so she needs at least one good bath a day and a good wipedown after every meal. After the good bath, I have to blow her dry to make certain she doesn’t get too cold. -_- So here’ hoping the FIA can help us… Us big folks are used to the cold, in fact we were turning the heat clear down to 58�F at night before we got the kitten.

On happier news, Echo is growing well. She’s gained weight and is now beginning to get the evening crazies. (In fact, she’s using my back as a jungle gym right now! XD) She’s begun taking tiny jumps and hops; loves exploring and climbing pant legs. That silly kitten also has an impressive set of pipes! XD I swear! Although I named her “Echo” for far more sentimental and deep reasons to reference back to our past pets; she’s so loud one of these days I expect to hear an echo after she meows. She’s using her litter box well, but she still hasn’t figured out where it is. ^_^;; She gets three-quarters of the way there and then can’t figure out which doorway it is. Once you get her inside the door she knows exactly what to do. She’s also up to four hours between feedings, so we’re giving her a little more food and decreasing the number of feedings. Echo is also responding to her name too *grins*

*hugs* Izzy, you’re right, having a kitten IS like having a child – but she’s precious to me. She’ll never take Sugar’s place, but God sent me one special little, kitten to fill that void.

(Great, now I’m crying again. >_>)

I’m beginning to contemplate making design sets, like blog layouts, and selling them for a dollar or two. Then again, I’ve barely had any interest in working on my own blog layout – let alone other people’s. Might be something for once we move and I get out of this state of depression I’ve been in.

Anyway, while I’ve been so absent lately I’m not sure anyone would notice, but I wanted to let everyone know that we might be vanishing even more.

Molly the Beagle

Saturday, January 11th, 2003

Okay, I’m officially disgusted. Earlier this evening, I put Luna out to do her business. Now, she’s a very shy dog and really doesn’t care for beings other than her people, so when I see her coming back up to the door and looking really nervous, it’s an almost instant to realize that there’s either a strange human or a strange dog in the yard.

Well, this evening, she comes right back to the door after I put her out. I ask her what the problem was, and she drops into a point. And what’s at the end of her point? The neighbor’s beagle, Molly.

So, I call Mom and Jass over and let them know as I put Luna in. Seeing a wide open door, Molly bolts. I intercept. After a bit of shouting and attempting to figure out if the neighbor’s home or if we can tuck her inside somehow, we decide to let Molly in. (At this point, we’re taking the neighbor’s word on it back when we met her that Molly was an Indoor-Dog.) Well, at first it goes well.

If you call “well” Luna nearly going neurotic because she’s so shy and doesn’t exactly care for her rear – or any of the rest of her – being sniffed. Nor does she like her water dish being drank out of. She didn’t mind her playing with her old tennis balls, but she was doing her best to take care of her plushies.

It’s finally time to go to bed and we take both dogs outside to do their business. Luna does her thing and gets ready in her fashion. Molly, meanwhile has been let out and back in numerous times over the past hours. Each time she “asked” to go out, we humored her and put her out. Anyway… Mom goes to bed. Jasson goes to bed. I’m still up taking care of some last-minute e-mailing. All of a sudden my mom bellows “Oh, Shit!” and that was precisely what she meant. After all those outs, Molly dumps on the carpet.

Well, to make a long story short so I can be up at 5:40am EST to go to work… Molly went home and got put on her chain by her doghouse. She doesn’t seem to be as “Indoor” as we were told. And I, frankly, am disgusted. If I had known, I would have just grabbed the first pair of shoes by the door and had taken her right to her doghouse myself.

48 Hours

Saturday, January 4th, 2003

*falls over* 40 hours (Christmas Week), 36 hours (New Years Week), and now 48 hours for this next week! X_x I swear to God, this place is going to kill me yet!!! I lost my temper New Years Eve and blasted one of the managers with both verbal barrels. I was waiting on 3 customers and on the way back over, a guy asked for help over by the furniture. So I called the Furniture Department and told them they had a customer. The guy tells me to call Hardware (they’re the department *right* next to them). So I call Hardware. I get attitude because I wouldn’t ditch my customers to help theirs. So after I help my customers, I go back into the backroom and end up getting yelled at by the Hardware manager because all the guy needed was one of the furniture carts and she couldn’t understand why I didn’t just get one from him. Umm… hello? All the guy said he wanted was help from someone from Furniture, he wouldn’t TELL me what he needed. So, I loose it. I came within like two seconds from quitting. And they *dare* tell me after they find out the whole story that I shouldn’t get so upset over that. Umm.. okay, I do what I was instructed to do and I get yelled at for doing it… and I’m not supposed to loose my temper? Heh. Sure.

Thank you so much for the beautiful card, Fantasy!! ^_^ Ashton is way too kawaii for his own good!! I’m going to have to get that game and the anime for sure!! Wow, that came off a printer!? O_o I’m going to have to check that printer out! My current one just guzzles ink ($38 a cartridge) even on the setting which is supposed to conserve ink, and I just can’t afford to keep replacing the cartridges all the time.

Kawaii Scooby Card, Crim ^___^ I know, I haven’t been around much time year, I hope to be around more this year. (Note the word “hope” *sweatdrops*)

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Behold: The Grinch’s Brown-Haired Love Child!

Saturday, December 14th, 2002

I’m alive! Spent my Saturday playing catch up, reading up on all my forums, etc. Watched YGO this morning, took a nap, played on the computer, took another nap… you know how it goes. ^_^

*hugs Theresa* Hey, Momma Elf! Good to hear from you! Holy Spoiling Bat-Man! O_o SeaOtter spoiling you GOOD! *giggles and hugs*

And in other news… if I haven’t said it strongly enough yet: This is the first, last, and ONLY time I will ever work in a store like this ever again. I swear to god… if not for my volunteer work and for RW.com, I would seriously have let some ID10T$ have it with both barrels. Instead I just roll my eyes and get on with my life. ^^;; (Jasson has this whole rant about Bobble-Heads he’s going to post soon, I think.) I had this moron come in and ask for shelf-brackets… first guy he asked has only been there like a week – so of course he didn’t know. The guy asks me as I’m coming out of the backroom… I don’t know, Hardware isn’t my department… hell, the only reason I was there is because I generally try to navigate the store via the backrooms, just to avoid people like him. So, he snaps at me that of course I don’t know, no one knows, and that he should just get the fuck out of the store. My immediate, mental reply was: “Whatever, Jackass.” Instead I just shrugged, rolled my eyes, and got back to work. You guys got me trained damn well, I swear. *rubs her eyes*

I have to work tomorrow from my usual 6am to 2:30pm EST, then I have Monday and Tuesday off. Monday we’re probably going to go shopping *shudders* and then Tuesday we’re probably going to stick around and do… stuff. *grins* (Chores = Stuff *nod nod*) Wednesday we work 3 to 8pm, and then until Sunday we’re working from 3pm to 11:30pm. And then on Sunday, it’s back to the regular 6 – 2:30pm. X_x We get home at Midnight and have to be back up by 4?? Good lord, I hope my co-workers have good armor… because they’ll have a set of twin dragons on their hands. Now, which one has red-eyes and which one has blue will probably be the real question.

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